By Kimberly Ayer/worldwidehippies.com
That was my youth. Now I know that everyday is a new beginning. Every hour, minute, and moment can be a new beginning. A decision can be made and I can resolve myself to whatever change within myself that I desire. I stopped making resolutions years ago. I was somehow programmed that THIS would be the year that I would change a litany of issues in my life. I would commit to an issue and by the end of January, I had thrown them to the wind. There was always next year!
Last years resolve was by accident. It is by far the hardest and most humbling as well. Last year, not as a New Years resolution, I stopped smoking cigarettes.
I started smoking in my teens. The late 70’s, early 80’s everybody was smoking. At least that’s how it felt. You booked a flight, you chose the smoking section. I don’t remember motels asking if you wanted a smoking or non smoking room. It was just a room. You watched a movie, the tobacco companies were product placing and glamorizing the cigarette. Watch the older movies and you will notice how smoking is as normal as breathing in them.
January 20, 2017, I developed pneumonia. It was the sickest I have ever been. Three weeks of antibiotics, chest x-rays, breathing treatments, inhalers, sleeping in a recliner so I wouldn’t wake my husband with my coughing and disgusting congestion. By the time I started to feel better, I realized that I had been so sick, that I had not smoked.
NOW! This was my moment. I had to finally stop smoking. I went to my doctor and we decided after failing at everything prior to this, I chose Chantix one more time. I had tried it when it was first introduced to the market and I like many others experienced horrible “closet hatchet murderer” dreams as I called them. I also drank alcohol socially back then. I am adding this because I think it’s important as far as MY PERSONAL experience ONLY.
This time I started my pack and nothing! No attitude, no bad dreams. I sailed through it! No urge, nothing. YAY! I had stopped smoking EASY, so I thought.
By the end of April I noticed that my “lungs” began to hurt. The sides, the middle of my back, and by the of May I started experiencing severe heart palpitations. I stayed on the internet , which is a very scary place and went back to my doctor requesting referrals to heart and pulmonary doctors.
I ended up with a heart monitor and my heart doctor stating that it was not related to the fact that I had stopped smoking, while his own Physicians Assistant agreed with me, that I was experiencing them because I had stopped smoking.
The Pulmonologist stated that I was fine and come back in a year.
I must tell you that I felt everything BUT fine! I was on my own. I resolved to research everything and make good decisions based upon what I learned.
I joined a gym and hired a personal trainer. It was slow at first! There were a few times that I laid sprawled out on the floor convinced that I was going to faint. I have always eaten fairly organic and healthy but I became very serious about it. I walked away from everything processed and purged my home. Food, cleaning, laundry, shampoo, soaps, everything became organic.
I started drinking the recommended daily water but I added fresh ginger root for inflammation.
How could I have been so stupid to smoke cigarettes? When it got really bad, the anxiety and fear, I ran to the gym. I then thought about acupuncture. Why not? I was desperate for some relief! Relief from what the cigarette companies didn’t tell me as a teenager. I am polluting my lungs with thousands of carcinogens, basically I am poisoning my body… voluntarily. Literally WTF! How stupid of me.
My acupuncturist is from China and I LOVE HIM! I decided on acupuncture out of desperation and an article I found about the USA military considering acupuncture for COPD patients. I explained my issues and within weeks my heart palpitations, and the constant pain were diminishing. I also began drinking a Chinese root tea that he recommended. I have friends from China and she told me that her mother gave them the same tea for respiratory issues as children. It’s called “Ban LAN Gen Chong Ji”.
I am sharing my experience, in the hope that if you are smoking and want to quit, then maybe my experience will help you. When conventional medicine help ran dry, Chinese medicine helped.
I am now looking at almost one year since I stopped smoking. I do not get cravings. I think it’s because of the hell I have experienced trying to detox my body and lungs. Again, this is the part the tobacco companies don’t tell you about.
I wish that I had never picked up that first cigarette. I hope that I will continue to heal. I pray that others put them down and maybe my experience, this story will help somebody else.
Peace and love, my brothers and sisters.